Tuesday, October 26, 2004

things are good...

lots of things going on lately and most of it is really good. I wish I had more time to write and share all the great things (maybe soon). Tonight I've got to write a bunch of cover letters so I can get them ready to send out tomorrow. I'm still worried and stressed about the job thing but everything else is going well. I spent some time last night with Mike and his Young Life group. I was really nervous about going and meeting them but it ended up being really great. I'm planning on going again next week. :-) I'm going to be dressing up as an Indian this Saturday and helping Jen out with her Harvest Party. A bunch of kindergarten through fifth-graders...it's going to be great! Plus, I get to see my nephew (and the rest of the fam.) this weekend. ahh, so much more to tell but I have no more time.

:-) much love to you all!!

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

A journal of my time in Savannah.

10.12.04
I felt as though I could finally take a deep breath. You know, one of those breaths where you almost feel instant peace and comfort to your soul. I needed this. Freedom flooded my being as cool air filled my lungs. It feels good. I feel alive and excited to embrace life.
10.13.04
One of my most favorite things to do is to be under a dark starlit sky. It is made even more spectacular standing next to the dark ocean, listening to the waves crashing on the beach with nothing but darkness embracing you. It is amazingly beautiful and peaceful.
10.14.04
Nothing bring back child-like carefreeness than riding a bike. We took off, all five of us, and by the time we had reached the middle of the first street we were all laughing so hard our sides ached.
I keep thinking that I feel like a kid again, in a good way. I've learned how to find sand dollars, ride a bike again, and am enjoying the simple pleasures of life.
10.15.04
I woke up this morning with a slightly sore throat and I started feeling worse as the day went on. Jenny and I are supposed to drive to Florida to visit her aunt after we leave here. I hope I'm not grumpy and I hope I start to feel better. I'm really starting to miss being at home. We spent all day shopping. Normally, that wouldn't bother me too much but I am totally wiped out right now and am feeling a bit miserable. The time spent here so far has been really good. I've gotten to spend time with my family and with Jenny, people that I know and love but am really thankful to have the chance to get to know them better.
10.16.04
Happy Sweetest Day!
Today was more of a continuation of yesterday except we got up extra early (I was the first up at 5:30 to wake everyone else up) for a trolley tour of Savannah. When Jenny and I first drove through Savannah I realized why my mom loves this city so much. It is absolutely beautiful and charming. It has a way of making you feel relaxed with its lush squares throughout the city.
After the trolley tour we were off for another day of shopping. Again, I still felt miserable. People aren't supposed to get colds on vacation, it's just not right. ;-) Walking up and down River Street is not my idea of fun when my throat hurts, I'm tired, impatient, and feel like I could pass out. We finally made it back to the house and I was in bed, on the last night there) by 10pm. Tomorrow Jenny and I head for Florida and my family heads back home. I'd rather be home, but I know that Jenny wants to visit her aunt and it isn't too far away. I've made her promise I'll be home by Tuesday afternoon.
10.17.04
The morning was a blur with the alarm clock going off every few minutes. My mom, aunt, and grandma left about 430am and I went back to bed for what I thought was only going to be an hour or two. Jenny and I had promised ourselves that we'd get up early at least one morning and go and watch the sunrise on the beach. We set the alarm and it dutifully went off. We turned it off, reset it and went back to bed only to repeat this routine several times. We finally dragged ourselves out of bed around 7am and drove to the beach in our pajamas. The sun was halfway above the horizon by the time we parked. We missed what we wanted to see by less than ten minutes but it was still beautiful. We have pictures. It should be entertaining to see what we look like in those pictures. Jenny and I left for Florida a little later and arrived in the afternoon to her aunt's place. I laughed a ton while learning to play dominos with them. The bed was much more comfy than the ones we had been sleeping on. I feel a little better but am coughing a lot more now.

Monday, October 11, 2004

things I enjoy (cont.)

27. my comfy bed.
28. the feeling of accomplishment after working out.
29. flowers.
30. candles as a soft atmosphere element.
31. focusing on the positive side of things. (so, I guess I see the glass as half full?!)
32. TLC (the Learning Channel) It's one of the main reasons that we don't have cable.
33. my blue p.j. pants.
34. helping people.
35. sappy, everything-turns-out-ok romantic movies. (Love Actually, Return to Me, and Under the Tuscan Sun to name a few)
36. strawberry margaritas.
37. weekends.
38. being an aunt.
39. sleeping with my socks off.
40. cooking.
41. spring (as in the season)
42. learning new things.
43. office supplies. hehe.
44. watching people interact.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

Things I enjoy...

I started a list of things I enjoy. I made it to 40 without thinking too hard about it.

I enjoy:
1. spending time with my friends.
2. my dad's desire to cultivate a better relationship with me.
3. chocolate. (giving up chocolate during Lent this year was probably the hardest thing I've disciplined myself to do.)
4. long, hot showers in the winter and short, cold showers in the summer.
5. traveling.
6. being friends with lots of different types of people.
7. good hugs.
8. affection.
9. the freedom of driving.
10. Usher's "Yeah" song. (it just came on the radio and I want to crank it up)
11. Photos.
12. Mt. Echo Park.
13. sunsets.
14. all types of scenery.
15. finishing a book. It feels like a great accomplishment.
16. England.
17. smiling.
18. the products of creativity. (art, musica, dance, etc.)
19. animals. Especially puppies, kittens, and dogs.
20. my mom's cooking.
21. desserts.
22. relaxing baths.
23. weddings.
24. living on my own (apart from parents...)
25. shopping.
26. planning things. (like parties)

I'll finish the list tomorrow.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

a little late

well, now that we're midway through the week I wonder if it is any relevant to share what happened over the weekend. I'll try my best to remember... Be prepared this may be boring for some of you...
the highlights:
Friday night was spent with some good friends, many of whom I haven't seen in months. It was our first dinner at the new place (well, with friends anyways) and I love having a dining room, even if it isn't able to hold as many as the Gregory's. I really love having people get together. It makes me happy to be able to enjoy so many different and wonderful people. :-) After dinner we headed to the studio walk through at Rebecca's studio. A-MAZ-ING!!! I haven't been to many of these things and always feel a bit weird when the artist is standing there. I'm never sure what to say. We made our way through most of the studios and finally into Rebecca's. Let me just say that I knew she was good but I had no idea that she was THAT good. Got to visit for a few minutes with the peeps from Tues. nights that had come to support Reb. I love seeing them. After that a few of us headed to Kaldi's downtown where I enjoyed a caramel steamer. Who knew milk could be so good? When we got there and parked a guy walked up to us and said something about paying. Mike handed him $5 and less than a minute later we saw a sign that read "Even if you paid to park here your car will still be towed". The guy assured us that the sign was for the weekdays. Thankfully, my car was still there when we left.

Saturday started early for me with trying on lots of pretty and lots of freakin' espensive dresses. The one we picked out is $150. It was fun to see my friends and it will be fun to be apart of Stephanie's wedding. After that I got together with some old work friends from Great American. It was reassuring not being the only one still without a job.

We spent Sunday morning out on the Gregory's lawn enjoying the sunshine. I LOVE this weather. A lot of our chat was about idenity and behavior. good stuff. I'll have more to share on this later. Then off to Columbus I went. Evie and I ate entirely too much, especially junk food. We finished a huge bag of Cheetos in less than a day, does that tell you anything? It ended the weekend (on Monday) well when she passed all of her tests.

All in all, it was a great weekend and I was able to share it with people that I love and enjoy being with.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

untitled

It's 8am and I find myself late again
He left without saying goodbye and I'm left feeling empty inside
I didn't know it would turn out this way, I thought this time it would change
My fairy-tale has ended and I'm thrown back into reality
How harsh it is
Evil looks, daggering comments, and back-stabbing are all around
Their presence only magnifies my lonliness
My only savior is my own tenacious attitude
I have become an expert at hiding the scars behind my smiling face
No one seems to notice the pain in my eyes
My life is nothing short of disasterous
Filled with heartache, guilt, and lonliness, I'm barely hanging on
It doesn't feel like living, it feels like dying
Death increasing day by day


Sunday, October 03, 2004

weekend

It's been a great weekend. I'll have more to share later when I have a bit more time to blog.
much love,
dana